Tuesday, January 3, 2012

What shall I do? Advice solicited.?

All my life I have felt like there was something missing. I whiled 22 years of my life thinking its this and that and finally decided nothing in this entire world is going to fulfill me. Since then I started seeking the Truth about my creation and existence. I realized this is what spirituality was all about. I shifted jobs around the same time and had made plans for a financially independent career while simultaneously pursuing my spiritual goals. Now I have gone too deep into spirituality that I have experienced several great Truths. I am no longer interested in the life I led before. All I want is get closer and closer to God. I spent around 8 months basking in my findings. Now the time to write my MBA exam is gone. I don't have a regular income with my job. Financially I have become a mess although spiritually I am doing great. If it were not for my spiritual findings, such indescribable sweet findings within me, I'd have never forgiven myself for screwing up financially like this. Now I am 24 and I am contemplating doing MBA while being least interested in anything worldly. I am being asked to marry when I know no real union happens by marriage. Real union happens only spiritually-union with the existence. All I'd like to do is pursue spirituality in some quiet monastery/ashram but which one can be trusted? In the name of spirituality there are so many fake ashrams run by people with other interests.I could never trust them. Now I am 24 and stuck but I dont regret anything. Should I compromise on my feelings and still get married, get a job etc as I pursue my spiritual aspirations? I am quite stressed out about my future. I will be meeting one other person anyway. He is a Realized person. But I couldn't wait so I have posted here.

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